Mere Updating..

Stupid gu asked me to update. And here I am. I'm proud to announce tt I m FULLY recovered!! Wee!! U ppl can nv understand the joy tts in me right nw. It feels great to be well again!! haha. Alright. I know.. I know.. It all boils dwn to vanity. Blehx.

Oh wells. Peipei dey all asked to do this interesting test. And here's my results.

Greed:	Medium
Gluttony:	Medium
Wrath:	Low
Sloth:	Medium
Envy:	Low
Lust:	Medium
Pride:	High

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Hmm.. Wells.. Its kinda accurate lah. haha. But then again, pride dun always get me dwn lah. Sumtimes, it does, I can't deny that fact. But not all the time. Haha.

Been feeling kinda cranky lately. Been thinking too much, I think. Got sum questions in me, that I haf been longing to ask sum ppl. But din haf the courage to. Hah. But sumtimes, I really feel lyke finding out. Not as though, getting the answer would mean anething la. But..perhaps..its just.. emm.. curiosity? Perhaps bah.. =S

hmm.. Love this quote frm eileen's blog:

"Men always want to be a woman's first love, while women like to be a man's last romance."

Quite true.. Hmm.. Think most females out there think the same way too. But then again.. after all tt I haf been thru.. hmm.. A man's last romance? Hard to cum abt, unless the relationship is really based on pure true love. *shrugs* One can always wish, can't I? haha.

Gona end this entry wif this nicenice quote..

"It's not who you are to the world, it's who you are to me. It's not how many times I say I love you... it's how much I really do."

Common test Stress

Its a nicenice Sunday! Hmm.. Actually intended to go swimming this morn but my headache seemed to b getting worse. Sobs. Hmm.. Had been having headache since I reached hm last night. Jialat. Hmm.. Let me update arh.. hmm.. I gt oni an A2 fer chinese. Which is darn disappointing. alright. alright, I haf high expectations of myself even though I din bothered to study fer my exams at all. Hmm.. meanwhile, I haf decided to turn ova a new leaf. haha. Dun luff leh. I m trying horx! haha.

Ysd went out wif Jer. Hmm. Went buy tix fer 'i nt stupid too' n ' final destination3'.Den went lib to study. But basically wus juz wasting time ther lo. haha. hmm.. the movies r okay la. but Final dest3 wus.. abit gross n sadistical. haha. I m nt a sadistic person but no choice fer me la, since my boyfren enjoys such shows. haha.

hmm.. Just nw went to read ster's blog n her 'bro' 's blog. hmm. Realised how familiar the situation is. Ster!! u stil rmb tt I haf been thru the exact same thing? Except mine wus more complicated? haha. seriously, this is too much of a coincidence sia. hmm.. Here's my advice to you, my dear gurl, hmm.. dun get too close to him becuz of sympathy. Its gona make things worse. Just show concern, but nt too much. N b firm abt ur stand. hmm.. you'll get ur letter in the nxt few daes. =)

Gona go mugging ler.. haha..

`Gd luck fer your exams, dear. Jiayou, dear!=)

hapi bdae to my gorgegous peipei

Before I start on my nonsensical entry. Gona wish my darn gorgeous PeipEi a hapi birthdae. Hope tt you're reali touched by the photocollage. Reali nice ritex? heheh. =D

alright. A cranky dae, it has been. Haha. Wusn't reali myself todae. Haha. I m NOT usually cranky d horx. hmm. Lessons were ok lah but I wus feeling rather slpy fer the whole time. Heh. Todae is the last day of my translation course!! haha. So hapi!! todae veri funny la. the lecturer tried to hynoptise us n Peipei juz fell aslp lorhx. She wus caught on video! haha.

Tried to distract Peipei while flor n leen went to get the nicenice collage fer her. But ended up, I kinda fumbled n nearly gav the show awae. Opps. Hw blur can I get? hehehx. N susu n cassie were luffin their heads off at me. sobs. oh wells. Peipei wus touched, i guess. How can she nt be? haha. Its reali nice lah. Went lot one fer dinner. Felt kinda bored after eating. So Peipei suggested playing sum sort of couple game which tests ur understanding of ur partner. haha. So me n my hellmate paired up. Leen wif flor. n cassie wif susu. alas, the questions all reali jialat. esp those asked by peipei. Me luff till stomach nearly cramp sia. N we were attracting quite alot of attention ther. guess we were ABIT too loud lah. haha. but veri fun lo. my hellmate juz rawks!! heex.

oh ya! one sad thing of the dae!! the icecream man is gone!! stupid principal. Whu said icecream is unhealthy?!! Mite as well take awae the vending machines. Aiya. Close the canteen lah. Oh ya. Mite as well ban eating. wat the hell. I HAF NO ICECREAM TO EAT IN SCH FRM TODAE ONWARDS. tts reali sad, kays? =( argh. hate the principal.=(

tml is the dae! wahahaha. hmm. tts nt an evil luff. its my crankiness acting up again. I m worried too ok? ppl r expecting me to do well fer chinese. i wana do well too. perhaps i shld go into hiding if i dun get my aim. hah. Worried dead rite nw. Wish my dear is here to hug me n make me feel better..=/

`i reali miss u..

Worn out.

I m sosososo tired. Had a pretty long dae todae. Feeling darn worn out nw. Sobs. I reali need my dear ard, to lend me his shoulders to lean on. hais. oh wells. Had two tests todae; both of which, I din study at all. haha. *shrugs* tts lyke.. emm.. nth new? heh.

PE wus rather exhausting. Esp when we r playing under the scorching hot sun. I tink I am sunburnt.Hmm.. Yea.. U din see wrongly. I haf gotten sunburnt. Whu saes tanned ppl cant get sunburnt? Blehx. I m one living proof. =P Den, left sch wif Peipei, whu wus darn worried abt me. Hah. I wusn't goin to cry lah. Juz tt bcux the sun wus too strong, thus, my face wus darn red. Hah. Chatted abt sum stuffs on our wae to lot one. Peipei treated me to my fav flavour of bubbletea n we continued chatting at the foodcourt. N tts wher I saw Js n gang. Peipei thinks he's cute! *ster!! see?!!* ha. his gravity-defying hair is so funny la. But I'm used to seeing it le, thus I dun luff upon seeing him ard, unlyke whenever I see Christopher walking ard wif his small backpack n his badminton racket hanging at the wrong place. haha. Its a real funny sight. Really. I really din mean to luff d. =P haha.

Two more daes to the release of A lvls results. Tink I'm getting back my chinese n proj wrk results den too. haha. Kinda looking forward to it. hmm. Am praying fer my dear seniors, shawn, peixi, samuel korkor, etcetc. But they're reali smart. So yarh, dun even tink I needa worry fer them at all. Haha. I shld worry fer myself, i tink. Hah. Just wish tt ther will b sumone ard to share my joy/disappointment den. hais.

Beginning to worry alot fer my common tests now. argh. shall start studying after tml. Mug hard, I shall.=)

`i m missing u alot.

hapi bdae to Peipei *my gorgeous hell mate*

random-ness

Wus staring at my econs hwk sum moments ago. Now online chatting wif desmond. Juz feel lyke blogging. Din do much stuffs at home todae. Wus either practising on my keyboard.. or eating.. hah. Growing fatter ler. argh.

oh wells. hah. Had a bad dream this morn. hais. Can't help thinking abt it. The sense of inferior-ness n fear of losing him is back. duno why. *shrugs* He's the best thing tt eva happened to me. Its the first time, i eva fell so deeply in love fer sumone right frm the start. But, all these feel lyke a dream. Really. He's too good fer me lerx. sumhow, I feel that I can never be good enuff fer him. I m a lousy girlfren, wif the imperfections n all. hais. if given a chance, I will choose never to wake up frm this dream.

Common tests are cuming le. But, I dun feel prepared at all this time round. Duno how am I goin to survive thru a lvls. Feel lyke goin back to the lib to mug. i miss sum of my lib frens. miss the security guards. miss the peaceful environment. miss running fer seats. hah. tink i mite pop by soon.

Tink I am juz feeling stressed out. haha. Sorry if I'm not being myself lately. Will cheer up soon. Gona go slp le. Tml's goin b a long dae. hais. `stay wif me please.

juz a stupid random update.

Its been a long time since I last blogged here. Kinda miss this blog. Too bad, I can't find my old blogskin. argh. sickening. ahh wells. this is meaningful as well=)

Hmm.. Juz gt a sudden urge to blog here. Cuz most of my memories r here. whether hapi or sad. Ysd, I wus browsing thru; gt reminded of sum memories. sum so dear to my heart, sum yet so heartwrenching. hais.

Recently, I juz feel so stressed out. argh. this is my first encounter wif such a case. N sumhow, the emotions tt I am goin thru right nw, seems so familiar. So familiar to wat I haf been thru during my last breakup. *shrugs* I duno why either. Perhaps, its cuz I reali do treasure her alot. as in, I reali do treasure all my frenships d lahx. My tearglands haf been overly active recently. Haven been crying fer so long le. Nt tt I miss the feeling. haha. I dun lyke to cry lah. haha. but juz feel tt if I juz kip deceiving myself tt I m really ok when I m not at all, I will end up feeling much worse. hais.

Seriously, I am shocked at such a situation occuring in my life. I haf nv had such a prob wif ane of my frens before. Nv before. This is juz so weird lahx. Its lyke.. its happening fer no obvious reasons. I hate such cold wars. Its torturous, stupid, n reali hurting. argh. todae, after the klaz's celebration fer susu, I juz stoned in the canteen, refusing to eat, cuz I reali din haf the mood nor appetite to. shocking uh? hah. *shrugs* leen wus probing la n asking me if I m goin to leave things as it is. I duno why. but, tears juz automatically welled up. *i m nt pms-ing! hah* argh. JS wus near my area, I din wana cry in front of him again, I ran to the nearest toilet, wif leen chasing after me. In the toilet, she wus trying to comfort me, but no use d la. all the worse, I cried. ha. told her to leave me alone fer sumtime but leen wus worried abt me. hah. nt as though I'll kill myself or anething. o.O" juz needed sum time to calm myself dwn lo. hah. hmm. Am pretty ok now. =)

`I juz wana b hapi.

www.livejournal.com/users/bluesaway this is my new blogsite....... dun complain to me tt i din update! bleh.. =P

back back back~

Me back! Me back!

hmm.. back frm camp n chalet.. haha.. Its been lotsa fun!! haha.. Orientation's gona b a blast! whooo! I lub my clan! haha.. We're gona b the best clan ard!!

Chalet-wise.. haha.. Had fun as well.. Went crazy wid ster, hong n jer.. haha.. FUn fun Fun! haha.. Ate too much lerx.. tink i gained lotsa weight! Die.. haha... its FAT ACCUMULATION fer the past few daes.. muz go on diet soon.. haha..

hmm.. Now awaits Orientation! its gona b a whole new great yr ahead! woohoo! HAPPY NEW YEAR ppl!

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Updates!! haha.. Been awae fer quite sum time ler, i realised. haha. Well.. i juz cum back frm my club chalet. Supposed to b back ysd de, but i had another fun dae out wif sumone special mahx.. Its been a great past four daes.. haha..

I muz sae the club chalet wus pretty much of a success. Ther wus lotsa bonding, craps. Hmm.. Had mahjong n xboxing lo. haha.. fer three daes straight oni slp few hrs n pia mahjong all the wae.. haha.. The bbq wus fun too! Lotsa nicee food.. n its the first time i helped out lo. haha.. dedicated my first time to my club.. bleh.. Gona haf another chalet nxt yr!! +D

hmm.. ysd.. after checking out frm chalet, cum hm n bathe.. then went out to mit jer ler..Went watch 'perhaps love'. Lyke wat flor said, it definitely evokes emotions in me.. haha. but i din cry horx. it wus a great movie. i lub its musical style of acting. the songs are nice. the plot is simply great =D after the movie, weent town walk walk.. saw sum of jer's frenx. then after tt, weent nite safari. haha.. it wus fun la. Saw alot of nice nice animals.. But too bad, i din get to seee my flying squirrels.. cuz i wus too late.. After nite safari, i din reali feel lyke goin hm.. so went midnite kboxing.. haha.. jer nearly dragged me to play pool instead.. haha. then.. weent slacked at coffeeshp cuz i dun wana wastee money taking cab home la.. Wasted a lot of money ysd lerx.. haha.. hmm.. yar.. then todae, tis morn ard 8 then reeached hm.. haha.. both of us weree pigging out on the bus on the wae hm la.. wee weree simply worn out.. haha.. den.. that gong gong, seent me hm.. but he so blur, forgot to take his passport n dcam.. den i had to rushed dwnstairs.. before he takes the bus to the customs.. heeng ar.. haha..had lots of fun!! whee..

i m definitely looking forward to thee end of yr chalet.. haha.. Gona haf MORE fun!! haha.. =D

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I m so in love wif you !!

Geez.. Ysd wus the best dae of my life *winkx* Went do flag dae in the morn wif Ster, hong, n zin.. Saw alot of other pioneers as well.. haha.. it wus great fun.. despite sum rejections.. haha.. Me n Zin finali bury the hatchet ler.. haha.. two years nv tok.. We can still crap lyke nobody's business.. haha.. But then.. We were still bickering fer the whole dae..haha.. as usual lahx..

After Flag day.. cuz me waiting fer jer.. I dragged them to take neoprints wif me.. haha.. Took twice.. haha.. It wus fun!! haha.. Went in search of food wif them.. then.. jer called.. So ster accompanied me to go find him at the cinema area.. haha... He looked so dashing lah! haha.. emm.. i meant his clothes.. So formal ! haha.. n his hairstyle.. Geez.. haha.. Well.. Ster agreed tt he reaLi veri TALL.. haha.. yea..

Bought the tix fer SAW2.. haha.. Went yoshinoya slacked fer one hr plus.. haha.. Crapped alot.. The food ther wusnt reali nice lah.. but it wus the oni place.. which wus peaceful enuff fer us to chat.. haha.. Hmm.. jer wanted to go play pool.. but i dun wan to throw face in front of a professsional.. so din agree.. haha.. Hmm.. wad to sae lehx? Jer.. is so darn sweet.. haha.. hmm.. the Movie itself.. hmm.. wus a quite a disappointment.. fer two reasons.. haha.. no 1. it wus nt as gd as the first one.. no 2. one of the characters has a sucky name.. *bleh* oh wells.. though the movie wusnt tt great.. it wus made enjoyable by jer.. haha..+D love ya so.. Wus abit guilty cuz he wus late fer his alumni dinner so tt he cld send me home.. heex.. =)

Alright.. hopefully nxt week still can see him again.. lOl

Hmm.. gotta go rest ler.. i m stil sick.. In fact, i m unable to tok properly.. ITZ NT SEXY VOICE AT ALL!! throat hurts.. sobx.. buais ..

*sickx*

Sick again.. Hais.. Aiya.. juz due to exhaustion.. Had overwrked too much recently.. Poor health.. *shrugs..*

oh wells.. Life's been pretty fine, i muz sae.. Peaceful n quiet.. Kinda settled dwn once again.. Regaining my normal quiet life.. =) Perhaps this is wat suits me best bahx.. i simply luv the peace.. haha.. though the sense of loneliness is inevitable.. But ther are always gd frenz whu nv fails to b ther fer me =D Thanks pplx..

Recently.. Wrked as a carnival coordinator wif my frenz.. hmm.. tough wrk.. low pay.. argh! anewae i gained a whole new experience.. n realised tt office wrk is darn boring! haha.. Wrking in an office is definitely worse off than studying.. haha.. oh wells.. i guess.. office wrk is juz nt fer me bahx.. haha.. I miss the hotel ppl ! ! *sobx* hais.. Miss the exciting n fun experiences ther.. miss sloggin thru late nights together.. miss the fun n laughters tt we share.. hopefully.. i still can regain all that too.. soon bahx.. Well.. the carnival job.. helped me make new frenz too.. haha.. nt bad la.. except the unreasonable scoldings.. n the LOW PAY! haha..

tml going back to sch.. to get my stuffs n collect my holidae hwk.. heheh.. oh wells.. i reali wish tml wun rain! heex.. i miss the sun! Geex.. i beta get goin... i nid my rest badly.. tata~

updates..

Hmm.. long long time nv update ler.. haha.. been veri busy.. haha.. let me update one dae by one dae.. dun read if u tink itz boring.. haha..

Mondae.. Had OP.. haha.. veri fun.. everyone wus so tense n worried.. oh yar.. i sacrificed my BRAND NEW black clog shoes to tt hazel.. hmmph.. so sad lah.. after pw.. we went slack at canteen awhile.. before deciding to go liyi's place fer another movie session.. Watched freaky fridae.. haha.. it wus nice to watch it another time.. wif great frenz.. hmm.. after which me n peipei went lot1 n did sth stupid.. haha.. the hello kitty rox ok?

Tues.. did nth much.. Basically stayed hm to do the klaz video thing..

Wednesdae.. Went sch early in the morn fer geog.. Told tt ther is gona b a trip to australia nxt yr.. Nt reali tt excited lah.. Cux sum bitch is goin too.. ha.. Oh wells.. after geog.. went iceskating wif susu..leen.. peipei.. it wus so fun lah.. alot of nice nice things happened.. i love the Bdae song.. though it wusnt dedicated to me.. i love the bubbles.. !! but guess.. the gurls went hm kinda crippled? haha..

Thursdae.. Had to go sch in the morn to hand in report.. after which.. we went lot one eat lunch.. then went hm rest.. Before i cld rest.. Gracie called me up to go shopping.. haha.. Went along lorh.. she did the shopping.. me juz hang ard.. haha.. then went fer klaz bbq.. Ate alot.. haha.. n Played alot too.. the truth n dare part wus darn nice lah.. i oso kena sum embarrassing act.. haha.. i love peipei fer her guts! n oh poor tim.. whu wus blushing lah.. haha..

Todae.. Went sch fer geog lesson.. then during the lesson.. suddenly gt the urge to go kbox.. So after which.. me went wif flor n leen.. flor is kinda kena forced de.. haha.. it wus fun lah.. we went crazy.. haha. ohya.. we got cheated of EIGHT bucks fer sum awful drink ... yuckx..

Anewae.. muz reali go find work ler.. else.. my expenses is goin to get me bankrupt.. haha ohwells.. me gona go ler.. Going to slp.. had a tiring nite ysd.. buaiz..

Wunderful dae *lalala*

Wunderful dae.. *lalala*

Went sch early in the morn fer proj work.. Then.. took alot of photos..heheh.. Been up to no good lately.. On a secret mission.. shhh.. heez.. Oh wells.. after everyone finish their rehearsals.. We went to lotone as a klaz.. except sum whu had sth on.. hmm.. oh well.. Muz agree wif tim.. tt itz wus indeed sort of a miracle.. but hey.. we realised tt our klaz is actuali quite bonded de lorh =D

Ordered alot of food.. i guess i freaked alot of ppl out.. haha.. sorry ppl.. i wus reali starving.. hehe.. but Clement wus worse kays? hahah.. then went arcade slack.. then ended up renting movies n went to liyi's place to watch.. haha.. i luff till i stomach pain sia.. though we were watching horror.. haha.. Cant blame me.. i m immuned.. n the gurls were reali funny lah.. Shall nt disclose too much details.. heheh..

hmm.. oh wells.. itz late ler.. tml going out in the morn.. Now.. going to bed.. the next movie marathon will b on mondae.. haha..

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hmm.. oh wells.. juz updating as promised.. hmm.. todae 05Ao7's evil plan din reali succeed.. so sad.. hah.. anewae.. we had fun still.. Everyone else turn up w/o their bags.. except emmhmm..n emmhmm.. n mE!.. gosh.. hai wo hafta leave my bag wif ahh long.. hah.. oh wells.. he supported our plan! ha..

todae wus the farewell assembly fer mr kwek.. our fatherly founder.. hais.. it wus a saddening ceremony.. i wus tearing thruout the assembly la.. hais.. hmm.. the performance put up by the BEACH BOYS rawkz! hah.. i wus screaming lyke hell la.. hah.. their acapella wus professionally good.. though guohao wus standing lyke a block of wood.. hah.. they are so POWEr la..

hmm.. after sch.. went to ogl miting.. shucks.. i m feeling damn bad nw la.. my ogl camp clash wif my chalet at the end of year.. i tink i m goin to get killed by minghong liao.. shucks.. die ler la... hais..

Gona go watch tv.. buaiz..

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hmm.. long time nv blog ler.. now den i realised.. hah.. anewae.. Gotten back my promos results.. hmm.. Did okay la.. but nw still waiting fer my promotional status.. itz still pending.. we shall wait n see bahx.. hah.. oh wells.. i haf made it thru the ogl selection trial.. ha.. so cool la.. when i checked the list of the shortlisted ppl.. i realised my whole grp actuali has gotten thru as well.. hah.. so hapi.. Can see them again.. >.<

ahh wells.. todae had my first OP rehearsal.. it wus.. emm.. disastrous in sum sense.. cuz my whole grp wus unprepared.. hah.. Made a fool out of ourselves.. *bleahx* ahh wells.. we'll definitely improve wif more practices.. i believe.. hah...

Think tml.. is the farewell assembly fer my principal.. ha.. Heard tt he is moving ova to NYJC.. hah.. Duno wat tml will be lyke.. ha.. In fact, i m looking forward to tml.. cuz 05A07 has an evil plan.. *hurhur* Shall blog again tml abt it.. =)

~tata...

Bad dae.. =(

I m reaLi sad lah.. though i shldnt b.. hais.. but hey! i haf gt feelings fer my club k? I've put in lotsa efforts n time into my club.. unlyke sum ppl.. oh weells.. i dun care.. i m appealing!! i cant juz see my club becum lidat.. itz nt FAIR! We are impt figures too.. I M APPEALING!! i m nt going to sit back n let this be.. lyke sum asshole.. hah.. anewae.. i noe i wus kinda rude when tt asshole wus making his hypocritical speech.. HAHA... Since when did u ever contribute? wat a joke! haha.. this morn.. tt asshole wus making sum announcements which i din reali hear.. cuz i heard alot of commotion..haha.. ppl were displeased to see such things on stage bahx.. wahaha..

anewae.. i seriously LOVE my club.. I wldnt be whu i m now..without my club.. I wldnt noe how to lead.. hw to organise events.. hw to plan events.. all these.. are valuable lessons i learnt frm the club.. =)

Humanities Club will rock on.. Believe me..

~ 05A07 rawkZ ~

05A07 rawkx!!

haha.. my klaz cheered me up during PE lesson!! haha.. wus initially sad after noeing tt itz interklaz between my klaz n that asshole's klaz.. ha.. thanks to clement whu comforted me.. n i very paiseh tt he injured his ankle again.. so sory.. anewae.. we thrashed them badly.. woohoo!! haha.. saw the three bitches' faces turn to shit-color.. haha.. they damn bu shuang lah.. haha.. my klaz gt standard neh.. ha.. anewae.. tt asshole din dare to turn up.. then my klazmates were lyke sarcastically commenting tt he wus a coward.. hah.. seriously.. i tink he wus afraid to lose bahx.. haha..

Few daes back chatted wif jerjer.. hais.. miss him sia.. long time nv mit up liao.. hais.. muz find time to go out one dae.. anewae.. gtg ler.. muz go rest.. todae hyper too much ler.. =)

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hmm.. 15th of October.. this dae, used to b so special.. But this yr.. oh wells.. things are totally different.. Time reali flies.. ha.. One year has passed so faz.. hmm.. anewae.. i dunO lah.. hais.. Juz hope tt he'll haf a nice bdae..

Emm.. Muz apologise to wei.. Duibuqi.. todae nv pei ni go out.. Hmm.. Todae iz nt a gd dae u see? hmm.. anewae, i had fun wif my gd fren, ster.. haha.. Went kBox during mid morn.. haha.. Sing n sing n sing.. haha.. we can sing very well tgr seh.. +D haha.. den we went take nice nice neoprints.. heez..

Juz sth fer u, wei.. I duno how long i will take to forget everything.. Duibuqi..

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HAPI BDAE BEN! =D

Oh wells.. todae went sch fer career seminar.. Emm.. Went fer the business de.. hmm.. Heard the same old stuffs again.. Nearly fell aslp.. Duno wat the hell i wus doing ther.. when i wanted to do social work.. Oh wells.. Wus basically fooling ard in the small crowded LT2, n contributing to the noise level.. haha..

hmm.. todae wus the farewell assembly fer the J2s.. Such a sad event.. Shawn delivered the speech, i almoz felt lyke crying liao.. So sad tt they will nt be ard fer us as often liao.. hais.. Oh wells.. life is lidat, i guess. hmm.. Mr. Woolhead very nice!! he sang damn nice lah.. hah.. oh well.. the farewell assembly ended wif the choir leading the sch song.. tt wus the most emotional moment fer everyone bahx.. i almoz cried lorh.. Flor wus ther " ehh Xin! dun cry! save ur tears fer nxt yR! " haha.. ttz provided tt i m promoted.. >.<

hmm after assembly went Visual culture rm wif celest.. she wus doing her proj work.. then me juz slack ther.. haha.. Oh yar! I signed up fer the OGL thingy.. ha.. cuz the whole Pae 05S10 is joining.. haha oh well.. then.. we went eat at mac wif felicia frm SC.. hais.. after listening to wat felicia said.. Her situation seemed so familiar.. but nt as bad as mine.. hah.. Feel so guilty tt i cant reali help much.. but hey, at least she is nt in my shoes.. ttz already very lucky ler..

Todae.. hais.. kip feeling sad.. *nt PMS!* ha.. tmL is tt thing's bdae.. Do i reali hafta care? hais.. oh wells.. forget it.. he wun b bothered anewae.. Gotta go liao.. tired.. tml maeb going kbox wif ster.. den go swimming.. haha.. Buaiz pplz.+)

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Todae wusnt a gd dae.. Haha.. Had a reali pissing dae.. hais.. Oh wells.. Tok to nessa, jeff n eric abt it.. hais.. Reali tired liao.. Sick n tired of all these.. I juz wan a gd break frm everything.. So so so tired.. hais.. ARRGH! Wo zhen de hen bu shuang neh.. hais..duno lah..

Anewae, i tot my dae wld brighten up abit after noeing my maths result.. hais.. unfortunately it din.. I oni gt a B.. I m feeling more sad than being elated ova it.. Perhaps i asked too much of myself? perhaps..? *shrugs*

Hais..let me share my stupid dae n at the same time, let me relieve sum anger here.. oh well.. sum asshole msged me laz nite to inform me tt "there is a miting at 2 pm.. agenda is amunching race".. I called up fen.. She told me she din get ane msg.. Neither did von.. Oh fine! he sux.. He din msged ane EXCO member except his gd fren sid n his darling.. hah.. I guess fen understand hw i feel all the time ler bahx.. hais.. oh wells.. den i went sch.. Went ard asking my members regarding their dismissal time.. HA! everyone ends before 1pm.. So yarh.. i went all over the sch to find my exco ppl *cuz i dun haf their no.* n inform them tt miting starts at ONE.. then i asked gim siong to help me tell that asshole n tt gal.. HA! afterwhich oni i realised tt his klas ends at ONE.. but itz oni the lit ppl.. then.. went fer miting.. haha.. waited fer more than half an hr.. asshole din turn up.. HA.. HE DOESNT EVEN TAKE LIT lorh.. n moreever, the miting iz oni fer ppl going fer the chalet.. ASSHOLE.. He shld b the one being punctual norh.. ASSHOle.. ended up me started the miting.. n AT TWO THIRTY.. HA finali he STROLLED IN WIF his wife.. HA! hw interesting.. n noe wat? when gim siong joked " hey u are so early! by an hr plus? " he juz ansed "watever lah".. ASSHOLE! Wat kinda of attitude is tt? arrgh..

Arrgh.. very pissed.. gona go cool off.. else i will reali die..

Itz finaLi all over XD *grins*

Itz OVER!! FINALLY!! YAY!! WHOOPEE!!

FINE!! i noe sum ppl ended ysd.. FINE!! let me go crazy fer once? haha.. oh wells.. todae finali haf my laz paper.. haha.. So hapi.. HAD A GREAT GREAT CELEBRATION wid my darLing vOn.. hmm.. haha.. Oh wells.. We went absolutely crazy todae.. Oh yarh.. i realised, i m becuming more racist ler.. i tink itz tt MOGU's influence.. >.< *bleah* heez.. juz now on the wae hm had a bad experience.. arrgh.. Reali damn pissed lorh.. Haha..

hMm.. tml maeb miting up wif ster.. haha.. see first lorh.. haha.. oh wells.. Promos are finali over.. However, this also means that we haf reached another crossroad of our life.. To stay in jC.. or to choose another route? Hard to choose eh? haha.. i duno lah.. oh wells.. ttz fer me to ponder.. Gona go.. Buaiz.. take care ppl.. HAF FUN!

Two more daEs left..

Wee!! two more daes left ler.. finali.. left two subj. human geog, econs mcq n drq.. Well.. kinda drained out after all these exam stress.. hah.. Dun see me so slack.. i m in fact stressed seeing ppl mugging lorh.. hah.. oh wells.. After each paper, i juz feel a sense of relief.. i cant b bothered to even compare ans or anething.. haha.. wateva lah.. oh wells.. todae's maths paper.. wus kinda easy? hah.. nt as hard as i haf expected it to b..

Went cwp ritee after my paper.. Crashed into minghong whu wus roaming in sportslink, instead of studying.. Hmmhmm.. then he pei wo go buy stuffs.. Den cuz i wus so attracted to this star bracelet frm WATEVER, i simply stop n stared at it.. den suddenly gt ppl poke me.. hah.. Shock tio me lorh.. iT wus peixuan.. She nw working ther.. So coOl! haha.. anewae, she ish becuming prettier n sweeter.. gOsh! hah.. then she mistaken tt mh is my bf.. haha.. i m no cradle snatcher, kays? hah..

Oh wells.. gona get started on econs soon.. heeheez.. buaiz.. wish me luck fer my laz two papers.. =)

Three mOre daEs to frEedOm >.<

Wellwellwell.. todae went sch fer my afternoon geog paper.. Suay norh.. Combine wif the hist paper.. Saw alot of THINGS.. haha.. ok.. i m evil.. oh wells.. the paper wus kinda easy lah.. Juz hopefully tt i will do well this time.. hmm.. Sian lah.. Tml gt THREE hrs of maths.. killer paper.. die liao die liao =( oh wells.. hopefully i can concentrate bahx.. *praying hard*

Three more daes to freedom.. ttz fer me lah.. i noe SUM ppl ends on thurs.. *hmmph* well.. i m already in the post-promos mood liao.. haha..*bigbig grin*

Here is the "TO DO" list fer post promos

1. Go kbox.

2. Go movie marathons

3. Go get a job

4. Meet up wid ster

5. Meet up wif dennis *the tanned yandao* XD

6. Go gaigai wif darLing celest

7. Organise outing fer pri ppl

8. Organise outing fer 04 unzip wif celest

9. Go canoeing/kayaking

10. Go beach suntan!

hmm i guess.. ttz long enuff fer now.. oh wells.. gona mug fer maths now.. haha.. buaiz..

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Hmm.. todae had econs paper three.. hah.. essays.. write till hand pain sia.. wells.. miracle.. First time write so much.. heez.. hmm.. well.. i still tink i m goin to flunk it anewae.. cuz i din study much=Pp.. haha.. After econs.. damn relaxed lorh.. bought food n went to concourse to pei yvonne study.. hah.. Saw tt kb wif sum girls.. duno he studying or wat.. hah.. Then.. Von found the place too noisy.. So we went lib.. hais.. bad choice.. saw tt thing n his gf.. diao.. anewae.. We stayed ther.. till cheuk call von to ask me put her bag in my locker.. I went out at 1225.. then i saw alot of ppl wif their chinese dictionary.. den i stopped to ask irene.. She told me the exam starts at 1230.. when i tot tt it starts at 1! Gosh.. i rushed lyke mad lah.. then when i entered the venue.. ppl were staring lah.. sheesh.. watever lah.. Lucky the venue wusnt the hall.. n lucky i came out to put bag fer cheuk.. hah.. heng arh.. else will b more paiseh=S

Oh wells.. chinese paper.. wus kinda easy lah.. but.. i scared my essay will flunk.. i spent half an hr practically stoning.. i wus tinking abt sth tt my fren said to me.. siao lah.. nearly canot finish norh.. hais.. oh wells.. tml is physical geog paper.. WOOHOO~ my fav.. gona try n ace it XD haha..

Went lot one wid von after the paper.. Treated ourselves to sweettalk.. yummielicious.. hah.. Saw alot of ppl ther.. i saw zhu lao shi!! ohmanx.. miss her so muchie.. then saw my juniors.. hais.. reminded me of my sec daes.. hais.. miss it sia.. hmm.. saw cheuk, nessa, cy too.. they damn free lah.. tml they no paper.. wat the.. hais.. nt fair sia.. no paper tml summore they end on thurs! arrgh.. i m jealous!

oh wells.. me going slp liao.. lata waking up to pia geog.. hah..=D

*tired*

So tired.. Sian.. I dun lyke wat i read.. Seriously man.. i feel lyke bashing up tt bitch..I m pissed to the max..Let me release sum anger here..*though i noe tt bitch wun b reading* Cum on lah.. U tink wif ur stupid character.. things will laz fer u? hah.. U simply sux.. U dun even deserve to haf ane frenz.. I m amazed to see tt guy still treating u as his gd fren.. no.. itz juz becuz he is ignorant.. Ignorant of wat u haf been doing behind his back.. F**king backstabber.. Juz watch out.. U will get it frm me.. U beta nt let me see ur freaking face.. i m going to make it more deformed than it has been. juz watch out..

okay.. i haf gotta cool.. this is so freaking pissing.. hais.. why are ther such ppl? i dun get it.. hais.. wateva lah.. oh wells.. todae went sch slack.. On the wae to lot one.. me n von were singing in the rain.. Kinda happy then.. xD then went lot one walkwalk.. saw lao da.. seriously.. i miss U! haha.. paiseh din haf time to tok.. nxt tyme muz cum out toktok ok? actuali gt alot of things to tell u de.. but hais.. hope to see u soon.. =) take caree ya?

Gotta go ler.. buaiz

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hMm.. actUali i shld be at my seC sCh celebrating mid-autumn festivaL wif my freNz de.. buT.. cuz i dUn waNa sEe sUm pPl theR.. *eyesOre* i deCide to staY hOme.. oh Wells.. aNe waE i m stiL siCk.. dun waNa geT ane wOrsE bY sEeing thIngs i dUn lYke.. =/ sUmting realI piSs me oFF!! wHu tHe hEll iSh shE to aTtenD my sCh feStivaL ceLebratiOns?? sHe iS nOt a bpIan.. waD aN insuLt! *hmmpH*

oh weLls.. gona calm down.. hmm.. todae went sch early in the morn.. haha.. wus supposed to attend geog lect. but ended up me going home after handing in my Gp file.. haha.. then noon went swimming.. wif ster, despite the forecast abt the sunspot thingy.. ended up me n ster are sun-burnt.. heheh.. die ler lah.. gona hurt! *sobX*

oh wells.. me gona slp liaO.. tMl goINg stuDy haha.. hopefuLly i caN conCentraTe.. i miSs the oLd me..=(

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Heheh..kinda long time nv blog liao..hmm.. wells.. recently damn busy wif coping stress.. n lately i m dwn wid flu.. three days liao.. still no beta.. Hmm.. todae came online to do my gp stuffs.. Dying ler lorh.. i m feeling so sick, juz wana go rest.. but can't.. *sobx* oh wells..

Todae had econs test. heheh.. it wus pretty easy.. haha.. i din study leh.. ACHIEVEMENT.. haha.. oh wells.. then got humanities club miting todae.. haha.. so fun.. cuz.. when the pres n his gf werent ard, there wus so much club bonding.. heez.. i m so proud of my club! i shall be organising a mahjong cum cards session after the promos.. haha.. oh wells.. i still tink itz pretty freaky of gim siong to link history wif cards and mahjong.. haha.. his history knowledge is extremely power.. i learnt one hist knowledge todae.. "hitler's fav teacher wus his hist teacher" oh wells.. had a nice chat wif the slacker teacher in charge as well.. Wus toking abt the unbeatable.. haha.. there is more bonding to cum.. haha..

hmm.. i gona log off liao.. my flu getting worse.. no time to rest properly lorh.. hais.. hopefully can update soon.. i m tired.. dun wana try anemore..=/

A memorable CIP =D

Gim siong, Kelvin, daniel *always posing fer the camera* >.< Gim siong, kelvin n daniel lee *nt again o.O"* The Guys of Humanities Club Me, cheuk n CY *heheh* Ginny, Shaofen, Yvonne, Yanxin and the three guys again

Here are the group photos of our club.. heheh.. Humanities Club Rox !! =D

A memorable CIP =D

sho cute rite? me helping the kids to brush their teeth *heheh* Lunchtime *yum yum* Naptime =) colorful mattresses !!

You all muz be wondering.. What did we do at the childcare ritE? haha...We had musical chairs.. it wus reali fun.. Kelvin n i took turns to lead the actions..heheh.. Bet we reali look very retarded bahx.. wells.. i had fun.. i guess he did too.. the children were quite obedient n were lots of fun.. love them lots..

oh yar.. kelvin has gt an admirer.. haha..

Besides having fun, we each "adopt" a child n went to the playgrd.. N went fer a walk.. hand in hand.. hmm.. After which, we went back to the childcare fer bathing time.. it wus great fun.. Den we assisted or rather, we supervised lunchtime.. the children are pretty independent.. i simply love the part when they prayed before eating.. So cute.. After lunch.. wus naptime.. their mattresses are reali cute as well.. heheh.. me n kelvin were so tempted to zhan4 wei2 ji2 you3.. heheh.. >.<

A memorable CIP =D

Alright.. More cute pictures here.. Yvonne & Hongyi Them again.. wid petrina n shumin in the backgrd Me and kaiwen.. he is eating a slice of apple.. heh Guan yu and Shaofen

A memorable CIP =D

Todae.. I had CCA-initiated CIP.. heheh.. Went to this childcare.. Kids are sOoo adorable.. they simply melt my heart.. Had lotsa fun wid the kids.. N of course, we had sum bonding within the club.. Finali i feel a sense of achievement..=D Will upload all the pictures taken.. Starting with my fav =D *heez..* n the moz adorable of all.. heehee.. Cute cute de kaiwen =) Daniel, Ghim siong n kelvin playing wif the kids Aren't they adorable? May i present the BIG BABY of the club... *drum rolls* I seriously tink ghim siong enjoyed himself more than the kids

KidS rOx!

my klasmates: liyi,peiling,eileen,suxian yvonne & me stars on the wall!! shO nicE.. Frm left: shuping, sharmila, yvonne n me mE & eileen

Ysd went to the childcare at shenton way.. haha.. had lotsa fun.. babies are so adorable.. kids are so cute.. heez.. oh wells.. those were the pics taken at the place.. it wus a great experience.. n i m shure tt everyone had fun rite? =D

phOtOs fer teaChers' daE=)

my secondary frens:zhijun,siewling,shaofen,jieying,mabia,jieyingShaowei & edison acting cOol with two chiobus in the backgrd: mabia & celest darLing shaofen & retrOgurL mabia shaofen & zhijun Shaowei showing off his gold medal..mabia n celest in the backgrd=)

photographer: xiN~

Photos taken on Eileen's bdae =)

my kLasmates:shuping,yvonne,eileen,suxian,florence,peiling yvonne & eileen *the bdae celebration at kbox* yvonne & eileen posing fer the cam while singing Say cheEsE!! one last shot =D dun they look as though they are advertising fer darlie?

pS: i m the photOgrapher=D *bigbig grin*

310805 *pre-teachers' dae*

todae.. went sch fer teachers' dae celebration.. Had mass dance.. hmm.. it wusnt reali nice lah.. cuz alot of ppl duno the steps.. haiz.. hmm.. well.. the celebration wus nice.. kinda similar to bp culture.. muz b becuz of celest.. haha.. niceenice.. esp the performance by shaowei n edi.. so NICE!! haha..

after everything, bpians gathered n we rushed back to bP.. it wus pretty empty.. heheh.. saw mr chiam.. he called me "XIAOHEI"!! wat the.. o.O" Saw alot of ppL.. reeali miSs them sOoo muChie.. hmm.. then went lot1 wif fen, 2 jieying, mabia, tingni n siew ling n ate at pizzahut.. then went to watch "drink drank drunk".. a chinese comedy.. itz kinda touching as well.. i cried.. heheh.. the male actor very shuai!! *heez* after tt, me, fen and mabia went to kbox.. haha.. very fun.. n hyper.. haha.. muz go again after promos!! i dun care..=D

sumtimes, i reali find life so unfair.. but fortunately, there are always ppl whu cares=)

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Oh wells.. todae, i tried to find back the old me.. i went back to the very place tt i once used to go alone.. yup.. alone.. but haiz.. still.. i crashed into the very person tt i din wana see together wif his gurl.. nt tt i hate tt person or anething.. juz tt i m scared tt i mite break down again.. I m trying very hard.. to forget everything n all.. but still nth seems to work fer me.. i m so so so tired.. Juz now minghong msged me to ask me get back up on my feet n stay strong.. true enuff.. i shldnt run awae frm stuffs.. i m trying.. n i m tired already.. I noe i kip saying tt i m alright now.. n behaving as though nth has happened.. but duno y i still care.. Ster, i m sorry.. i juz cant seem to let go of this.. =/ haiz.. y am i letting this affect me so much? this is juz so shitty=S

oh wells.. saddening case no 2. juz saw suhui's msg nt long ago.. She has withdrawn frm pj ler.. haiz.. another fren whu understands me is gone.. haiz.. Well.. but she seemed kinda happy abt it.. so.. i guess.. i shld b hapi fer her as well? Suhui.. u gona b hapi.. n rmb, no matter wat u do, think carefully..=)

oh yar.. todae.. received ster's msges.. kip thanking me fer the card.. haha.. ster.. wat're frenz fer? i m juz glad tt u are hapi.. hmm.. tml gona spend wif whu wor? haha.. wan me help u ask *emmhmm*? haha hmm.. well wish u an early happi bdae darLing=D

Recently, i m beginning to feel the promos' stress becuz of the ppl ard me.. but still me.. you xin wu li lidat.. Juz cant seem to get in the mood of studying.. this is juz so nt fair! Why am i suffering the consequence of sth tt i did nt do? haiz.. maeb itz all my stupid fault bahx.. i duno.. the other dae.. neSsa told me sth.. tt gt me real confused.. tt dae, i wus supposed to haf a photo taking session.. but ended up i cldnt smile at all.. i cldnt even fake a smile.. fer the whole dae, i cldnt conc.. everything juz sux lah..

i juz wana b hapi.. is tt too much to ask fer?

memOrabLe dae --- 240805

heheh.. Ysd wus oni a memorable dae.. haha.. ysd wus my gd gd fren eileen's bdae.. Went wif von, liyi, n eileen to kbox... haha.. fun FUN FUN!! haha.. liyi sing song very nice.. so sweet.. von n eileen very hyper.. me oso very hyper.. we ended our session wif our fav song.. haha.. n we were jumping up n down.. haha.. so fun.. haha.. long time nv enjoy myself so much ler..=D muz go again sumdae.. heheh.. after promos, it shall be..

oh wells.. todae wus pretty ok.. kinda tired fer the whole dae.. tink ysd hyper too much ler.. ended up very exhausted.. haha.. hmm.. after sch, went shopping wif yvonne.. heheh.. bought lotsa nice nice stuffs..=D tml i gt a bigbig duty to carry out.. heheh.. =Pp oh wells.. tml gt maths quiz.. haha.. dun feel lyke studying.. haha.. oh wells.. tml going out wif vON!! haha.. looking forward to it.. heez.. me reali veri slack.. tsktsktsk.. gd luck to me..

mE gtg ler.. oh yarh.. muz wish my beloved brO.. HAPI BURFDAE bOi! hope u n ur darLing can quickquick b tGr..=D

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Heez.. Wanted to blog ysd de.. but when i reached hm, i wus so damn tired.. then i went slp early.. so nan de.. heheh.. oh wells.. ysd wus quite a nice dae bahx.. hMm.. i went sch wid irene then check out the hse games.. haha.. saw *emmhmm* name ther.. haha.. oh wells.. todae is the games.. but then hor.. me too piggy ler.. cldnt wake up early in the morn.. sheesh.. sho sad..=/

then.. i spent my breaktimes in sch wid fiona n peta.. had a wunderful lunch wif them.. then help fiona wif her econs.. i wusnt reali much of a help i tink.. haha.. hmm.. oh wells.. had a very exciting panel discussion during gp.. haha.. luff until my stomach almoz canot take it.. *wahahaha*

After gp.. me n von stayed back.. chatted wif ms lee.. fer a long long time.. then ms kat came n exclaimed " i din noe yvonne n jiaxin can b so talkative!" den both of them started toking abt how quiet we are in klass.. mE quiet?!?! haha.. ttz a big joke lorh.. oh wells.. then after 3 hrs of chatting, me n von finali headed fer cck stadium.. haha.. we were going crazy on the wae.. n took the wrong bus.. haha.. when we finali gt on the correct bus.. we felt so relieved n we started singing on the bus.. haha.. but when we arrived.. haha.. the place wus closed.. so we ended up sitting down..eating n singing at the same time.. haha..=D so fuN!!

Gona go out sOon.. haha.. i wana b hapi!!

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hMm.. todae wus practically a "OK" dae.. haha.. nth much bahx.. let me recall.. hmm.. ysd.. wus kinda in a foul mood.. thus i din haf the mood to blog.. oh wells.. ysd had a supposedly cca "miting".. Can u believe it? A miting held fer less than 3 mins.. whoa.. i tink the president can go fer the guiness bk of records ler.. hah.. Sory fer the sarcasm.. oh wells.. ysd went to tok to my geog teacher.. heard tt ther is another club setting up this yr end.. she is attaching me to it.. fer the projs.. hmm.. but i m tinking of going ova.. cuz the present club i m in.. is going to collapse sooner or later wid such a "WUNDERFUL" president.. hah.. so yar.. anewae.. i haf confidence tt i will make the new club a beta n definitely more successful one.. haha.. always having so much overwhelming confidence.. haha..*bleah*

Okay.. enuff of the sarcasm.. hmm.. todae went sch.. haha.. me n von were going crazy fer the whole dae.. toking abt "superstar"show.. haha.. junyang reaLi very shuai n cute.. oh gosh.. heez.. oh yar..todae.. had debate.. haha.. long awaited one.. haha.. oh wells.. it wus horrible.. i tink i did badly.. haha.. haish.. anewae my team lost.. "due to unconvincing n lack of points".. oh wells.. it wus definitely crappy.. i din even understand wat i wus toking abt.. n i wus kinda trembling.. Din tink i wld let my stage fright get to me again.. Oh wells.. todae met suhui.. she is dropping out of pj ler.. haish.. one less fren around.. very saddening.. so discouraging.. ppl ard me are giving up so faz.. haiz..but nevertheless.. i will try my best.. n nt let anething affect me again..

hmm.. the dae before ysd.. tok to cow.. haiz.. sorry cow.. I juz realised tt no matter wat.. rite now i juz cant giv up.. n leave him in the lurch.. true.. i cant help much.. he wun listen.. but itz nv in my intention to see him down n out.. it hurts.. i will try.. fer as long as i can.. to do as much as i can.. but i will nv giv up either.. =/ haiz.. sorry cOw~ u gotta take gd care of ur health k? rest more pls??

oh wells.. gotta go touch up on my EOM ler.. then go watch jue dui superstar.. haha.. hopefully jUnyaNg will get in.. *wish hard* he iSh sOo shUai!! *heheh* tata~

another "craBby" entry.. >.<

haish haish haish haish haish haish haish haish haish haish haish haish haish haish haish haish haish haish haish haish haish haish haish haish haish haish haish haish haish haish haish haish haish haish haish haish haish haish haish haish haish haish haish haish haish haish haish haish haish haish haish haish haish... *long long sigh* these arent sighs of relief.. if oni they are.. haish.. I always tell them nt to sigh too much.. very bad fer health.. will die faster de.. hah.. i tink i m dying soon den.. Been sighing alot recently.. =( haish.. bu dui wor..=S *sheesh*

Seriously speaking.. I reali cant get used to this stupid life of mine.. itz lyke.. nth ever goes well fer me.. Fer those whu are close to me.. you all shld noe.. haiz.. why huh? Do i reali deserve such a life? Made lotsa wrong decisions.. thus worsening the situation of my life.. haiz.. Now here i m in the arts stream.. when i truly belong to the sciences.. hah.. how stupid can i b? I still rmb.. after the o lvls.. i swore to sum of my frenz tt unless i m dead, i wun take ane more arts subjs in the future.. hah.. but yet, being rash n stupid.. i made the decision fer sumone.. n ended up me suffering the consequence.. How dumb can i be? hah.. Sumhow.. i can nv becum lyke the typical arts students.. nt even close.. hah.. i juz cant adapt.. itz the air that surrounds them tt kinda made me feel lyke avoiding.. Orite.. no matter wat.. ther is still sum beautiful souls in the arts stream.. nevertheless.. but itz oni "SUM".. i can even count them wif my fingers.. my klassmates are part of them of cuz.. =D heez.. i miSs the science stream.. ppl ther are more sociable.. more sensible.. more friendly.. more lovable.. at the very least.. they dun tok wif the same sarcasm n bitchy-ness as sum arts students does.. haiz.. juz wish tt.. i wun becum lidat.. i DUN WAN!! hah..

Juz now toking to junhaO.. nw kinda feeling beta ler.. itz great frenz lyke him whu kip me persisting on in my life.. great frenz whu motivate.. whu cares..=) thanks ppLz..=D

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Sheesh.. todae is supposed to b a short n hapi dae de... But cuz ysd i din slp well again.. ended up being very slpy in sch.. haish.. oh wells.. let's start off toking abt todae first.. hmm.. had netball during PE.. heheh.. damn fun lorh.. but kip crashing into helmi n clement.. very sweaty!! haha.. oh wells.. it wus great fun.. long time nv play netball ler.. =/ hmm.. had gp compre test todae.. tough.. cldnt conc again.. haiz.. oh wells.. guess i wld juz flunk it badly.. =( haish..

Orite.. haiz.. things haf been happening so faz tt i cant stop or prevent it.. shucks.. this sux.. ysd nessa showed me sumthing in sch.. kinda shocked me very badly.. then i went hm to cry.. Why am i crying again?! haiz.. stupid lah.. itz none of my business anemore.. why shld i even care? why?!?! cow ish rite.. i m dumb.. i m stupid.. haiz.. guess i m too softhearted ler? i duno.. it juz hurts to see things becum lidat.. all i wan is fer him to b hapi.. but yet.. i cant help now..=(

oh wells.. juz now before i left sch.. nessa wus toking to me.. i juz kinda started tearing again.. den cindy walked past.. n asked "whu bullied u? tellme! damnit!" she nearly made me burst into tears on the spot..haiz.. oh wells.. shldnt tink so much ler.. i m tired.. reali tired.. all i can do ish juz pray fer him.. =/

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hmm.. first of all.. muz wish my gd gd fren yvonne "hapi bdae".. hmm.. oh wells.. this morn i woke up damn early.. cuz ster asked me to mit her at 920.. I din slp much ysd.. my back hurts badly.. cuz of the sunburnt.. very painful norh.. can die..=( oh wells.. met annas on the wae to the mrt station.. he wus on his wae fer floorball training.. soo sporty.. haha.. well.. me hao bu rong yi made it on time.. oni to find tt ster overslept..*abish* well.. then.. me went lib mit hong.. haha.. then when ster came.. we all started mugging.. haha.. me.. juz kinda slacked.. reali no mood norh..=( oh yarh ya wen came to join us cuz her frenz were so damn noisy..

during lunch.. we went to take neoprints.. haha.. very very very very nice.. haha.. =D muz frame it up.. haha.. nxt time muz take more!! oh yarh.. then suz outside the lib, gt the marie france bodyline roadshow.. yawen initiated tt we go fer the free fat analysis.. haha.. n so we went..wus in marie france bodyline waiting fer our consultant.. then me took hong's phone n started taking pics again.. haha.. wo hen zi lian sia..=Pp geez.. oh wells.. the analysis is tt i m underweight but i haf gt fats! haha.. wOo~ haha.. i m nt thin.. haha.. =Pp oh wells.. muz build more muscles.. haha..=D todae had lotsa fun!! haha.. =)

oh wells.. me go watch tv liao.. take caree pplz.. =)

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heyhey.. nth to do.. juz felt lyke blogging.. haha.. oh wells.. ysd slpt kinda late.. but i woke up kinda early todae.. haha.. so nt lyke me.. Used to pig out till late afternoon de.. haha.. Well.. then me went to the swimming pool wif sis.. Now kena sunburnt badly.. *ouch ouch* sheesh.. shldnt haf stayed so long.. but it wus great great fun.. heheh.. oh wells.. though i din do ane studying todae.. but i had fun.. so whu cares? =Pp *bleah*

hMm.. less than two mths to promos ler.. hmm.. or rather to b more specific.. 46 more daes to my promos exams.. haha.. time reali flies manx.. oh wells.. hopefully, i can get pass it safely bahx.. let's hope tt my results allow me to stay bahx.. ysd, my civic tutor asked us to set our targets.. heheh.. i tink i m kinda crazy de.. me wrote dwn.. A fer maths.. B fer geog.. B fer econs.. A1 fer chinese.. B4 fer GP.. almoz impossible.. mE always drming of the impossible.. lolz..

oh weLLs.. tml gona start TRYing muggin ler.. haha.. reali hafta try.. =) gd luCk to me..=) ppL.. muz study hard too.. n take care of ur health=)

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Heheh.. finali it iSh fridae ler.. Waited sho long long.. haha.. Todae ish a stupid dae.. Ysd, or rather this morn.. i slpt at 1 am.. Wus watching the release of results for Superstar.. haha.. hell lorh.. i wus crying awae.. haha.. though i dun reali tink derrick has the potential.. but see him cry.. i oso cry.. very sad fer him.. haish.. he is cute lah=) haha.. ended up nt doing my gP portfolio.. heheh.. slackerish attitude.. *bleah*

Oh wells.. todae i very blur lorh.. haha.. forgot my specs.. Wus so blind fer the whole dae.. haha.. assembly sux totally.. we hafta "learn" writing testimonials.. haha.. so stupid.. hmm.. well.. gp wus fun.. the debate wus an eye-opener.. haha.. hMm.. after sCh, went stadiUm to run again.. haha.. timing improved alittle.. but still nt enuff.. i m still training hard.. oh wells.. itz tough.. haha.. after tt, went swimming pool wid ster n hong.. haha.. nearly drown as usual.. haha.. Wus lying in the pool n chatting wif ster.. haiz.. reali miss the past.. the worries-less sec life.. the freedom n happiness i had..oh yar..no shuaiges ther again..hai ster so sad.. haha.. Den me went sports hall.. trying to look fer my bro.. but cuz i wus half blind.. haha.. cldnt spot him among the many badminton players.. heheh.. *sheesh*

oh wells.. tml going drowning again.. haha.. no lah.. juz wana sun tan.. haha.. as though i nt dark enuff>,< take lotsa care pplz~ i misS eUu all='(

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todae start sch after quite long a break.. Cldnt reali get in the mood of studying manx.. sheesh.. oh wells.. Wus feeling damn slpy fer the whole dae basically cuz i din slp well ysd.. duno why.. juz cldnt get to slp=( *sobx* lessons were basically okay on the whole.. but my eyes juz refused to kip open from time to time..=/ haish

well.. todae i gt back my chinese common test.. Got the highest in klass.. well.. alittle elated.. but still nt satisfied.. my compre i did quite badly.. wus so disappointed in myself.. haiz.. n i din even put in my best lorh.. i din bother to study.. now quite regret..=( sheesh.. Slacked during Gp lesson.. wus busy munching awae.. lolz.. todae wus a long long dae.. nearly cldnt laz manx..well.. here i m at hm.. gona get started on my gp portfolio n stuffs.. dun tink i nidda slp tonite ler.. sheesh.. bad luck seh.. whu asked me to b borned a slacker? heehe..sian.. oh weells.. tml going out wif ster.. woots~ looking forward seh..=D haha

Me change song also.. heeheh.. my fav.. twinkle twinkle little star.. ~

*baCk! baCk!*

mE baCk! me baCk! haha.. me changed my layout ler.. finali!! nice mahx? haha.. i m starting on a new life.. new beginnings.. heez.. yar.. matt.. new frenships too.. *winkx* Time reali flies w/o us realising it.. Though time seems draggy n torturous when we are faced wif unhappiness n hardships.. but nevertheless.. when we look back, we wld realise tt time passes real fast.. Oh wells.. my resolution is to cherish all the gd times.. n live my life to the fullest=D

heheh.. wells.. ySd watChed tHe nDp on the net.. hmm.. different feelings this yr.. kinda overwhelmed wid different emotions.. last yr.. i had feelings of happiness n joy.. this yr.. i felt hapi in a different context.. i felt hapi tt i managed to stay alive thru the struggles of life tt i haf.. i felt hapi tt i still haf frenz whu reali care.. i felt hapi tt a yr has passed.. though things are different now.. but at the same time, i believe tt i gona b happier soon..=D

Hmm.. oh well.. the same old jiaxin ish back.. haha.. gona b more cheery =D hmm.. oh yar.. gona congrat zeS.. haha.. finali settling down ler.. heheh.. muz jiayou worx.. i wana see her sOon! haha.. kampate!=)

Oh yar.. this paragraph is dedicated to Raine..my dear pretty fren cum counsellor.. Hmm.. i reali hope tt u haf tot things thru seriously before making tt decision.. reali no regrets? hmm.. itz gona b hard to let go of things.. i understand.. but no matter wat.. i wish u all the best in all tt you do.. Haf faith, my dear gurl.. N rmb to b hapi n smiling always.. take care~ =) Jiayou worx.. =)

Oh wells.. ster darLing bu shuang ler.. i muz go do my hwk before she blows up.. haha.. buaiz ppL~ Will update as often as i can..=) tata~

*high high high.. up in the sky.. =D*

Here i am.. blogging again.. haha.. emm.. itz kinda pitch dark outside.. cant see wher i m.. heheh.. well.. i m still on my wae.. ard 7 more hrs to go.. Sheesh.. maeb lata i will take my nap.. haha.. Oh wells.. juz now finished reading one novel.. haha.. Juz kinda too bored ler mahx.. Lolz.. Well.. the novel reminded me of lotsa things.. =/

hmm.. gt one typical... old fashioned qn... which i pondered abt cuz i wus reali too BORED here.. "If tml is the end of world..wat wld u do? Or how wld u spend ur last dae?" Hmm.. if tml is my last dae alive.. well.. most ppl wld spend it wif their loved ones.. haha.. for me.. haha.. wif my great frenz bahx.. haha.. they are the ppl i loved most rite nw.. heez.. =D Oh wells.. juz now tot of minglin.. esp wat she used to sae abt me.. sheesh.. after so many things tt happened.. i m kinda slowly..very slowly.. finding back my old self.. lyke wat mL said.. i used to b "a people's person".. yea.. i tink i m going back to tt ler.. no longer the selfish me.. whu oni cares blindly abt sumone whu dun even deserve it.. soRy frenz.. wellwell.. i duno lah.. now trying nt to tink so much ler.. I juz wana change.. haha.. change back to a nicer "people's person".. sumone whu is always ther for my frenz.. haha.. Gona b stronger.. n more independent.. n better in everything i do.. as for other things.. haha.. heck lah..

Oh wells.. hopefully everything goes well for me frm nw on.. =) i'll survive no matter wat.. *anewae matt.. frenships laz longer than anething.. though i m still considering.. haha.. wish me luck*

National Dae ceLebratiOn =)

hey.. todae wus the national dae celebration.. Met von n sharmi to go sch tgr.. hmm.. reached sch.. lyke enter poly lidat.. oni tt everyone wus wearing a standardised red top.. haha.. hmm.. well.. the ceremony wus okay lah.. juz alittle gitch sumwher.. haha.. hmm.. then celebration performances were great.. esp the old folks.. haha.. so cute.. ka wa ii neh..>.< then.. me n evon n fiona *the three musketeers of pae 05S10* were going crazy singing.. wif the council n band ppl at the back of the hall.. so fun!! wOot~ haha.. so damn hyper.. heez.. whu cares abt wat ppl think? haha.. oh wells.. me hapi jiu hao rite?=D

Hmm.. me will b gone.. for 72 hrs.. haha.. but i borrowed my cousin's laptop.. so i will b online still...heheh.. ster.. dun miss me too much ya? haha.. take care..=D oh wells.. gotta rush liao.. Bb~ take care pPl..=P

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Juz reached home nt long ago.. Heheh.. Todae woke up quite late.. First ting i called up ster darLing.. oNi to realise tt PIG wus still in bed *abish* hmm.. Well.. then mE went to ster darLing's place to study for the whole afternOon.. haha.. wad a fruitful dae! hmm.. crapped alot..ate alot.. gosh..i m growing fatter ler.. haha.. hmm.. then i realised one thing when i went to her bedroom.. i wus so damn shocked! My eyes were practically popping out! Gosh! i saw my sec two pic.. the one i took wif my gd fren zhili.. IN THE TOILET.. haha.. n i wus wearing my nerdy specs.. wah liew.. sO funnIe lorh.. shEesh.. ster.. can i beg u to take it off ur desk? sheesh.. itz sOo ugLy.. haha..@@

Oh wells.. tml ish national dae celebration.. then supposed to b smart n casual dae de.. end up MUZ wear RED shirt.. diaoz.. sian.. sheesh.. hmm.. feel lyke going back bp for the celebration.. but lyke no one is going back lidat.. haiz.. sian diao.. alright..hopefully tml is a nice nice dae.. =) happie national dae ppL=)

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Wayhey.. it iSh..emm.. 11 plus now.. haha..Kinda late.. Normally, i wld be snoozing in bed norh.. todae special heheh.. haha.. Actuali kinda slpy ler.. but me stubborn.. i dun care.. Juz wana blog before i go orh orh.. heez..

Oh wells.. this morn.. i woke up damn early go mit minglin darLing.. haha.. she wus late.. *abish* hmm.. then me pei her go sch.. oni halfwae cuz i gona b late for sch ler mahx.. haha.. *bleah* oh yar.. minglin darling going camp todae.. wish her all the best.. muz haf fun wor=D Then me met joan.. crap all the wae to sch.. miss her so much.. =(

I wus practically very slpy for the whole dae.. So Soo soOo tired.. haish.. Cldnt conc at all.. *sheesh* Took my chinese test todae.. kinda stressed out lorh.. first time i so panicky for chinese.. gosh.. it wus tough.. =/ GP test neh.. i wrote crap.. tink totally out of pt ler.. but heck lah.. *bleah*

After sch.. me rushed to cwp to mit ster darLing.. haha.. Wus supposed to go swimming de.. but ended up i feel lyke running.. so we went to the stadium instead.. oh wells.. i realised how much i miss the tracks.. haha.. crap.. Hmm ster very lazy lah.. slow jog wif me one rd then slack ler.. haish.. me ran 400 metres.. n timed myself three times.. haish.. timing wus SUCKY!! i aimed for 1min15s de.. end up.. heheh.. i ran 1 min 55 s.. diao.. throw face..=( haish.. muz train hard ler.. muz get back into condition.. haha.. We slacked ard the stadium.. watch the wdlz wellingtons *tink spell wrongly* train.. haha.. their jerseys v striking! haha.. i lyke the color *wootz* then i saw these two indians doing 400metres too.. oh man.. they ran damn fast lorh.. within 1 min leh.. i wus so shocked.. @@ *dazed* cOol lorh.. i aim to b lyke them.. haha.. noNo.. nt as black..*oops* juz the speed.. heheh..=D

Finished slacking at the stadium.. me n ster went to the swimming complex to slack again.. haha.. nO shuaiges ther todae.. very little ppl.. tink cuz of the hungry ghosts festival bahx.. hmm.. well.. got acquainted wif this chiobu coach.. she reali very chIo.. no kidding.. =) hmm.. slacked ard..ate cup noodles for dinner.. kinda pathetic.. haha.. but nvm.. hmm.. well.. chitchat awhile.. me started tearing.. sian.. my tear glands duno why over active de -__-" haish.. maeb i shldnt tink back too much.. *sheesh* Duno lah.. haiz.. haiz.. haiz.. stupid me!

well.. Juz now wus reading thru the precious moment bk tt ish owned by me n minglin darling.. started crying again.. the entries.. reminded me of alot of things.. sheesh.. why things turn out this way? i dun get it.. i still dun.. Isit reali cuz of wat my frenz think? i dunO.. perhaps.. it's beta for me nt to know? i m juz.. confused.. well.. i miss sec life.. life is so much happier n lively then.. but now? things are so different.. sumtimes.. i even tot tt i mite juz collapse.. the tot is enuff to giv me shivers.. haish.. hopefully.. i wun.. nt nw.. =/

Oh wells.. i haf crapped enuff ler.. reali tired after all those running.. gtg ler.. BUaiz..~

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Hmm.. todae went sch.. I m still sick lah.. Haiz.. Sorry to haf made so many ppl worried.. Haiz.. I oso wana quickquick recover.. Sick very tongku.. Orite.. todae supposed to mit ster dear de.. but her muMmie dun let her cum out.. so sad.. sO long nV see her ler..=/

Oh wells.. Todae gt two tests.. Geog open bk.. kinda easy bahx.. I do finish.. then fell aslp.. reali very drowsy.. tired sia.. duNo why lidat.. then econs pretty okay lah.. i wus amazed at myself for being able to write sumthing out.. haha So nt lyke me..=/ Hmm todae got back geog tests.. So hapi ~lalala.. I scored nt too bad for sumone whu din study at all.. so hapi.. heheh..

emM.. muz apologise to vanessa.. n celest.. sorry gurLz.. i reali juz very tired.. i m kinda ok now.. dun wory for me ler.. i gona fine sOon..=) hmm i miss being hapi..=/ *sheesh* Miss alot of ppL tOo.. haiz.. *mogu!! wedding crashers out ler.. when go watch tgr?*

alright.. matt.. i m tinking hard abt wat u sae wor! haha.. emm.. emm.. *blush* okay.. ppL take care of ur health.. gDluCk for ur tests n exams=) ~tata

baCk tO scH ~lalala

I went to back to sCh todae.. after twO whOle daes of "holidaes".. Well.. Still kinda sick, but i forced myself to go sch nevertheless. Sheesh.. i m always so stubborn. Din reali slp well ysd. Duno y oso. hais. First thing went sch, went find darling celest. n ShaOfen to pass them their letters n stuffs. hmm.. then received lotsa greetings of concerns frm frenz.. *so touched* hmm i reali miss sch i guess.. emm.. oni the ppL.. nt the lesSons part.. Lolz.. haha.. todae.. we were slacking during Pw lesson.. played murderer.. lOlz..

oH yar.. Muz haf sum special mention for the people whu made my dae todae=D Hmm first n most imptly.. the PRF.. consisting of peiling.. suxian.. florence.. Liyi n Eileen.. thanks for ur card.. Reali very gan dong.. *hurhur* thanks for caring so much for me.. heez.. thanks for being ther for me=) Nxt.. emm eugene made my dae too.. haha.. he wus lyke "ehh jiaxin.. u okay ornt? If gt anething muz tell me.. i help u settle.. aneone bully u tell me.. i gt my brothers settle.. blahblahblah.." very funnie.. haha.. well at least i noe.. my frenz care..=)

Well.. todae gt back results.. haish.. disappointing.. i gt B for maths.. C for econs B for Geog.. B4 for chinese E8 for Gp.. reali saddening lorh.. haish.. but whu to blame but myself? haha.. i haven been studying anewae.. been slacking all along.. haiz.. wat to do? reali mOodlEss..=(

Got sumthing to apologise.. sorry pPl.. i m nt returning to the bP table..emm at least nt for the time being.. i juz dun wana make things awkward.. or rather be treated lyke i m invisible.. soRy..=/ Gotta go now.. buaiZ~

HAPI BDAE ZIN=D *haha* u are ONE year OLDER ler.. muz learn to act ur age wor.. =Pp hmm.. Dun stress too muCh.. life iSh tOo shOrt foR unNeccEsSary uNhapIneSs..=) takE carE=)

Stuck at hOmE~*haish*

haish.. i m still half blind seh.. >.<>

Oh wells.. laz nite chatted wif matt.. Had a reali NICE chat.. haha.. yea.. I miSs eUU matt..=D hmm.. well.. matt arh.. i haf tot abt wat u said ysd.. haha.. well.. seriously.. i duno lah.. me oso SHY mahx.. =X *sheesh* haha.. pPl iSh gOd.. me is onI ordinary plain oLd mE.. heez.. let's juz wait n see k? emm.. maeb.. maeb.. i mite take the initiative afterall.. haha.. it all depends lah..=D But then again.. i duno wher to start.. haha..=Pp Mite nid ur help still.. hMmz.. hope u are doing fine in aCjC.. how's ur fan club? haha.. muz update me sOon k?

Hmm.. this sat i organising iceskating.. i nid groups of four each in order to get unlimited skating time.. Hey peeps.. if u are interested, inform me before 12 midnite on fri.. haha=Pp hmm.. hope tt i can b fine by tml.. haish.. feel lyke resting forever...=/

siCk *sobx*

*sobx* I m soo sick.. Juz woke up frm my nap.. Haiz.. kena severe eye infection.. now see things very blur.. Even so, haha.. i m still online.. I m stubborn, i noe.. But whu will care? haha.. there is simply no one whu reali cares now.. =/ Being sick ish definitely a sad thing.. feeling weak all ova.. n unable to accomplished ane work.. All i can do is to slp n slp n slp.. o.O" N wat's worse? i m being stuck at hm for two whole daes. Hopefully, i will be fine tml.. I wana be back in sch.. Heard tt todae's chinese test wus tough? haha.. i dun reali care..

Juz now.. lying in bed.. i tot of lotsa things.. juz feel lyke penning it down here.. hmm.. Well.. i realised sth.. Watever NEGATIVE guesses or wishes i made always cum true.. Hmm.. three mths ago.. i guessed tt he wus twotiming me.. n BINGO! i even gt the gurl right. N, recently.. i wus chatting wif my fren ova the phone.. n i wus so pissed abt seeing tt eyesore in sch.. so i juz merely said tt i wished i wus blind.. n hey.. i m half blind now.. cant reali see clearly.. Shucks.. wat's next? Maeb.. it's all juz mere coincidence.. i duno.. *shrugs* i haf told sum of my frenz abt my guesses.. now.. we shall wait n see.. I juz dun haf a gd feeling.. i reali dun wan it to cum true..=/

Alright.. i oso tot of organising a chalet wif my gd gd gd gd gd gd gd GOOD frenz rite after promos.. But then.. i wus nv a gd organiser.. haha.. i will try nevertheless.. but i m afraid i mite not get gd responses.. Well.. i m leaving soon.. haha.. Nt reali tt hapi abt leaving anewae.. true.. wo already si xin ler.. but then.. i m still worried.. =/ hmm.. well.. dun care so much ler.. Sorry ster.. i din wana let u noe when i m leaving.. haha.. u noe how much i hate farewells.. =/ hmm.. i will be back de mahx.. haha.. i m letting my promos decide eventually.. hah..

Been thinking alot recently.. Life is reali reali short.. n good memories are worth more than the bad ones.. i wana create good memories.. heez.. hmm.. i still haf lots yet to accomplish.. Once i recover.. i will get back on the tracks n train my running again.. i haf slacked totally after those disappointments.. hmm.. n i gona take up new sports.. n master everything.. haha.. sounds so dreamy.. hmm.. well.. i will try nevertheless.. N for my promos.. i duno.. i will try hard.. triple As sounds very much lyke a dream.. but i will try.. but if i cant make it.. forgiv me.. i juz hafta leave.. *Sory ster* Wish me luck bahx..heh..

Sian.. my eyes reali jialat.. gotta go rest liao.. buaiz ppLe.. takecare~ Promos are cuming .. take care of ur health.. jiayoux=D